21 of Secondus, 1669
Don Andres has informed me that my father is not dead. I'm still shocked to think that he's been alive all these years. I have so many questions that my brain is just spinning. Don Andres said that I could not see him, but he could deliver a letter for me. I am at a loss as to what to say. I've spent my entire life dreaming of what it would be like to have a father, and now that I do, I am overwhelmed. What if he doesn't like me? What if he is ashamed of me? Will he still want me for his daughter when he finds out I am pregnant? I don't know what I should say to him. There had to have been a reason for him to leave mother and I. I wonder if we were, perhaps the family scandal. My mother loved my father very much, that I could tell. But did he love her, I wonder. I have so many questions that it's hard not to just write a list of questions one after the other. But I suppose that would be a bit rude. So I will work on this letter and maybe I can keep from embarrassing myself. I hope he likes me.
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