4 of Tertius, 1669
We have arrived in Avalon, but I wish we hadn't. I wish I had never left home and that my mother had never died. Upon our return here, we were caught in a blockade by the Sea Dogs. The actors we had been sailing with had been smuggling weapons…to Vendel or some such place. After that mess was cleared up, we were sent to see the Lady of the Lake . I wish to have no more conversations with the Fey. Every time we do, I am told something else I do not want to know. When asked her advice about the child I carry, she could give me none. This is not something that has ever happened before. I am not entirely human. I am half-marrow. I'm not sure what all that means, but a marrow is a type of fey. I also have a brother out there somewhere. I hope I can find soon enough and warn him that his life is in danger. I plan on researching it more, but something happened while we were on our way back.
Queen Mab launched an all out assault on Carleone. There was nothing to be done but plow the carriage through the hordes of undead that were marching out of the ocean. We were lucky to make it back to the castle. Even then we found the gates barred and a mass of people begging to get in. The padre, Luke and I did our best to rally the people to fight off the zombies to buy enough time for the others to get the gates open. I guess the did. I don't really remember much of that fight, I only remember what happened afterwards. We met a fey called the Holly Prince. He healed us, for I know I was grievously wounded, deposited us into the castle then gave us gifts. I have the idea that what I originally thought was a single problem, has been doubled. The Holly Prince gave everyone 1 gift, except for me. I received 3. One that was obviously for my self and 2 baby blankets. I am guessing that they are to be for 2 babies. I wonder how my father will deal with twin grandchildren.
I understand now, I think, why my father chose to send my mother and I away. She was not human. She was marrow and one look at me and he knew I was the same. Who would want a child who can turn into a seal. For a person of his standing to have a child by a woman who was not human was unacceptable and he certainly couldn't marry her. According to the church the fey do not have a soul. That means mother didn't' have a soul. No priest would marry them.
I know its not your fault, papa, but you left us and we needed you. I need you still, but where are you? And my brother, is he safe at all? I didn't even know I had a brother. Why have you abandoned us, papa?
I suppose the whys really don't matter. My life is forfeit at this point any rate. Captain Reis is after my blood. He doesn't forgive and he doesn't forget and he always finds you. He's bigger, tougher, stronger, and probably smarter then I am. The only thing I have a chance to determine is the time and place. That is the only advantage I have for now. I wish a lot a lot of things. One of those is for my children to be safe. But I doubt that Reis will let me live long enough to bring them into this world, let alone long enough to hide them.
Ayúdeme papa, yo le necesitan.