7th of Tertius, 1669
My life is a complete ruin and I might as well be dead as everyone thinks now. After everything we have done for Avalon, Queen Eleane has summarily entwined us in her machinations against her own daughter, and I fear we will not recover. While the castle was under seige, Captain Reis made an attempt at stealing the Graal. We did our best to fight him off. For a brief time we found an ally in the Lady Black, Reis's own daughter, but she did not survive. With the Graal safe, and the seige comming to an end, I thought that perhaps we would gain a brief respite. I was wrong. We were told that we had an appointment to see Derwyddon. Upon reaching his quarters, we found him stabbed in the back and poinsoned. The knife in his back was sparking with some power and burnt my hand when I tried to pull it out. We were still reeling at this turn of events when the Queen strides into the room and arrests us all for his murder. Meryth, who until a few days ago, was Queen Mab's general, was put in charge of the investigation, and I use that term loosely. After spending a few hours in the dungeon, on the same day that we fought so bravely for this country, we are visited by the very person we are supposed to have murdered, as well as the Queen. Their plan, reguardless of the consequences to us, was to "execute" us for murder and try to draw out Meryth. We are told that this is to our advantage because the people who are looking for us, Captain Reis among them, will think we are dead. However, being "executed" for murder, in a foreign country could be disasterous for my families holdings in Castille. On the one had I would like to think that my family is not important enough to be noticed, but on the other, a noble woman, no matter how minor, being executed in another country is bound to cause some attention. In Castille these days, attention means the inquisition, and that I can not afford. I am sure that mine and my mother's sepecial familial traits will come out and I will be forever banned from my homeland. Even if they don't, there will be those who will forever brand me a murderer regardless. Rumors and lies are always more entertaining then the truth. Queen Elaine has ruined my family name, just so she wouldn't have to confront her daughter. We, who fought so hard to save the Graal, to be used so meanly without so much as an after thought, are left depending on the one person who used us to repair our reputations and give us back our lives. I am not optomistic. Queen Eleaine will do nothing to repair the damage she has down, and I am left with the shattered remains of what was already, a troubled life.
And what of my father? How will he deal with the news that I am dead? Will he even find out and will he even care? Part of me wishes for him to come running up on a white horse and save me, but I know that is unlikely. They say that in Avalon you live the fairy tale. It seems that Avalon's fairy tales are more like Vodocci stories, full of lies and treachery. For me the fairy tale is long since over, leaving nothing but pain and emptiness in its wake.
I wish that there was someway that I could cleanse that wretched place from me. I know now why mother never spoke of it. I will never be rid of the Fey blood that runs in my veins or that of my children. It is no wonder that my father wanted nothing to do with us. Avalon poisons everything it touches. It stripped me of my family, my honor, my soul, and finally my very name. What is left? A scandelous woman with no husband and two children on the way with no one to turn to and no where to go. I can not even ask Theus to help me. Nothing I have beleived in is what it was supposed to be. I've tried to follow Theaus's teachings only to find that I have no soul. I tried to live my life with honor only to have it taken from me by something that wasn't even human. I tried to help those who needed it, only to have them turn on me. I don't know what to do now.
Rachel is insisting on going to Vodacci to try to stop the man who is trying to collect all the shards and open the gate. She thinks that this man is her father and is going to try to kill him and seize the power of a Vodacci prince. All this under the alturistic guise of saving Theah from Legion. Considering the events in Avalon I am inclined to let Villinova open his portal. I'm not conviced anymore that Theah is worth saving.
I was taught that you do the right thing because its the right thing to do. While I did not expect accolades neither did I expect to be treated so villainously. Perhaps the gateway is Theaus's way of correcting his mistake. Who are we to stand in the way?